March 20, 2015

who I am (at the moment)...

who I am |
I am…

…constantly surprised by new signs of aging that I swear weren't there even one year ago. Gray eyebrows? New wrinkles? Age spots? I guess the thing that is even more surprising is that my reaction is typically something along the lines of, "Huh. Well, there's that." It's not something that wrecks my day or makes me stressed out and on the search for anti-aging products. It's crazy when I think back to the insecurities of my teens and early-twenties, because I realize now how much I missed out on by not embracing each stage of life and the beauty it brings.

…able to get a million things done these days on the afternoons my daughter does decide she feels the need to nap. This whole no-napping thing has been such a huge adjustment—for the both of us, really. She ends up being a crabby patty when she fights sleep, and I end up being at my wits end when I realize the only time I have to myself all day long is either early morning or late at night. I'll look at the clock in the afternoon and want to scream, "HOW IS IT ONLY THREE FIFTEEN?" Seasons, seasons. Motherhood is always changing, isn't it?

…realizing that I need to bring healthy-ish snacks with me everywhere I go now, because lately I start to get nauseous when I am even the slightest bit hungry. And there's only so much money I'm willing to give to Del Taco in return for their chicken soft tacos. (All of it. I want to give them all my money. Don't tell Jay.)

…thrilled that next month will bring a bunch of family (both my husband's and my own) into town for visits that have me looking forward to April so, so much.

…saying all the prayers in the world, crossing my fingers, and putting all my hopes on a charming duplex that is currently for rent, which we applied for this past week. It is literally the only place I've seen so far that I feel we could move into and I'd be completely and utterly at peace. I know it's probably bad to get my hopes up like this, but I just can't help it.

…trying not to think about how our Disneyland passes expire at the end of this month. What a year it has been! We aren't typically people who splurge on things like that, but I think it was so completely worth it.

…rather lacking in the creativity department. I'm trying to figure out how to organize my days in order to make time for making. It's been a while since I've done much of anything creative.

Further reading: who I was two years ago


  1. New signs of aging are beautiful! More like new signs you're growing wiser. :)

  2. Yes, I agree about the signs of aging. They add more beauty and character! Also, I hated when my kids' napping ended but then once they got a tad older I no longer had to plan my days around nap time and it was a little freeing. :)

  3. We enforce naps for both kids on Sundays because church tends to go late and it's AMAZING how much I can get accomplished with two hours of uninterrupted time. I have no idea what I'm going to do when my youngest decides she's not going to nap every day!

  4. So happy for the family time next month... I can't wait for my family to come visit in the summer! :)
    My fingers are crossed for the duplex! Since I am looking for places to rent myself right now, I know how frustrating it can be to find something that you like and that has everything you want in a new place.


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