…exhuasted, mentally. And emotionally. (And a little bit physically, come to think of it.) I really need to sit down and write it out—because that always seems to help me work through these things—but for now a few bullet points will have to do. Suffice to say, there are times when my current role just wears me thin and I feel like I'm terrible at everything I do, and disappointing everyone around me. Frustration leads to guilt, which leads to feelings of inadequacy and insecurity, and therefore more frustration. It's a lovely little roller coaster of emotions.
…happy to have finally purchased a couple new pairs of jeans to replace my one go-to pair that has actually worn to bits in the past few months. There's something about September that makes me want to do a bit of back-to-school shopping, no matter how old I get.
…a little too excited about a hand-me-down iPad that a friend generously gave to us last week. It's something I don't think we could have ever justified splurging on, so I feel so spoiled! I'm most excited over the ability to read ebooks on my Kindle app, because reading them on my phone is just too annoying (small print and a million pages). I think I'll always prefer holding a tangible book in my hands, but I'm always coming across free ebooks and can now "borrow" them from our library website, so perhaps I'll finally come around to this bit of technology. Convenience, right?
…so grateful that Eisley is almost completely potty-trained (aside from overnights and a random let's-wet-our-pants-all-over-the-library moment that was quite special). It's so odd to watch her shed these last pieces of baby-hood, and to now be such a grown-up little girl.
…working on putting together birthday albums (digitally; I'm no hero) for Eisley's first two birthdays, because I was so thrilled with how the one I made for her recent birthday came out. I put things like this off for so long, and I don't know why. Once I sit down to actually do them, they give me so much satisfaction and don't take nearly as long as I think they will.
…starting to pray for impossible things. Or, at least, things that feel impossible.
…a little wistful over the fact that my best friend is moving across the country this month. It's rare to find that level of friendship with someone, especially when it lasts for nearly a decade. I'm not sure what I'll do without her.
…completely and utterly ready for autumn. Scarf weather, boots, cardigans, pumpkin everything, being that annoying person who watches Christmas movies two months before the actual holiday. All of it.
…thinking a lot about hospitality, community, spiritual gifts, and other such things. There is so much I feel like really digging into these days, but it almost seems like there is a lack of time to truly dedicate to it. True, you make time for what is important—but what if there are so many things that feel so important? What then?