September 19, 2014

mornings, revisited...

further thoughts on mornings | yourwishcake.com
Oh, mornings. You're finally wearing me down. In a good way, though. Our love/hate relationship is starting to become more love than hate, which is rather unexpected—and fantastic.

I'm trying so hard to embrace rising before the sun, given that I have a child who has always been an early riser. If I want some time to center myself before a full day, I have no choice but to drag myself out of bed when Jay's alarm goes off just before 6AM. I've always wished so hard that I could be an early bird, someone who thrives in the earliest part of each day, who doesn't want to lash out irrationally before coffee, checking my phone, nibbling a bagel.

But I'm learning that if it's worth it to you, sometimes you have to force the liking. And for me, it is worth it. I rarely regret waking up early. I even do this weird reverse-psychology thing with myself the night before, getting myself all pumped up about the morning (which always arrives much too soon). How awesome! You get to have at least 30 minutes before Eisley wakes up to do whatever you want! Sky's the limit, self! It's like you're adding extra hours to the day! Victory is mine!

On the ideal day, I'll wake up a little before Jay's alarm, so I have time to gather my thoughts and start going through my list of things-to-do. Before launching into mommy-mode, I'll be able to enjoy the quiet of the morning. Open the blinds to cool the house before the inevitably hot afternoon arrives, savor each perfectly-clean room (hastily tidied the night before) as I walk towards the kitchen, make a perfect cup of coffee, turn on the computer to answer an email or two, take a peek at my planner. Above all, this is the best time I've found for me to do my journaling and devotions, and I can always, always feel a difference in my overall attitude and outlook for the day when I do them during the first part of the day.

Granted, this ideal morning doesn't always happen. It doesn't even happen the majority of the time, at this point. Just this morning, Eisley woke up right after Jay and I. (Room sharing isn't the best when an alarm must be set for 5:50AM!) But I've finally started working towards creating the habit of waking up early, which means I now look forward to doing these little extra things. Which means I've almost stopped resenting early mornings altogether.

(Almost.)

Inevitably, whether I'm up before or after my daughter wakes up, the morning begins, calling me to action.

Mommy, I'm ready for my cereal! Can you set out the options on the table? Mommy, can I have toast with peanut butter and honey? Put on a show, please! So, where are we going today? I'd like my hair in two braids. No, one braid. No, two. No, just a ponytail. A PONYTAIL BRAID!

I rather like her little voice chirping at me first thing after she wakes up. She's (almost) always so full of energy and sunshine. Although peace and quiet are but distant memories, there is a certain charm to this stage of motherhood. When she's a brooding teenager, I know I'll want nothing more than to rewind and relive these mornings.

And who knows? Along the way, maybe I will become an early bird. Weirder things have happened. I just have to keep remembering how much more peaceful and patient I am when I give myself the gift of a little time to myself. It's always worth it. Repeat, repeat, repeat.

Further reading: My thoughts on mornings from 2011 and 2012.

7 comments :

  1. I REALLY need that alone time before the kids wake up to set the tone for the day. Unfortunately, since the kids sleep in our bed, they usually sense when I'm getting up and wake up too. It's so frustrating when I'm already getting up at 4:45 a.m.! I mean, I'm a morning person, but that's just getting crazy.

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    1. Haha! If you got up before 4:45 you wouldn't be a morning person, you'd almost technically be a night person. ;) I keep reminding myself when things are a struggle that it's all a phase. A new one will be around the corner!

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  2. I admire your morning attitude so much. I seriously hope that before or once Baby Bannan arrives that I become a morning person again. I feel like your day is just so much more productive and enjoyable when you're up earlier. However, I've gotten so used to sleeping in it's going to be a rude awakening to get up early again. Also, love your crafting nook!

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    1. It took me literally three years after Eisley was born to get to this point, so believe me, I fully encourage you to sleep as much as you can! :) And thanks for the sweet compliment, as always. You're a gem!

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  3. I love early mornings! The hardest thing really is the 'getting-out-of-bed', because once I am up, I really love how the early mornings feel! :)
    It also feels like your day is so much longer, when you rise early and accomplish things before the world wakes up!

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  4. I wish I could get the strength to wake up earlier than my kid so I could have some time to myself but sleep...bed...warm..I just can't do it! Although I did today and she ended up waking up just as I was about to enjoy my breakfast lol but it did make my day a bit better for some reason!

    I hope you can become an early bird eventually!

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  5. I've never been a morning person but I've been trying really hard lately ~ I have two kids who are early risers and like you, I find early morning the ideal time for devotions and writing, and it always seems like my whole day goes better when I make the effort to wake up before Topher and Ellie!

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