June 6, 2014

on embracing early mornings...

I'm not the kind of person who wakes up early to go running. I've never had the motivation to drag myself out of bed until my daughter is asking for cereal and juice sometime around 6:30 every morning. I've never chosen to sacrifice sleep to spend time alone in prayer, journaling and going through a devotional. I've never made a point to carve out at least a few minutes of quiet before I start a day of mothering.


But lately, I'm trying to be that person.

The thing about starting something new is that it's not going to feel normal or comfortable or even enjoyable. Before, at least. The after is always filled with thoughts like, "Why don't I do this all the time?" "Man, I feel like superwoman." "Waking up 45 minutes earlier isn't actually as painful as I've always made it out to be."

Granted, this is still a new thing. I'm still starting out, slowly forcing myself to find an early-morning routine. Much more out of necessity than actual enjoyment. But I'm hoping that at some point my heart (and body) will adjust.

The more I talk with other women (especially those in a later season of motherhood), the overwhelming consensus is that they each had to force themselves to become a morning person. They created the habit and stuck to it. Of course they wanted to sleep. Of course they deserved that extra hour of sweet, sweet slumber. Of course waking up before the sun wasn't their favorite part of the day. But what it did for their sense of preparedness for the day ahead…how they were able to have some time to themselves before the noise and mess and crumbs and diapers…how they were able to feel like they were put together before having to put together their little ones…that, they say, is what always makes it worth it.

I always hoped I'd have a child who slept in. 7:30 would feel magical at this point, to be honest. When Eisley sleeps until even 7 it's like, "WAIT. Is she breathing? Should I check her pulse and respiration?" She's always been an early riser, so it makes it difficult to get up even earlier than she does. (And then there are the days she feels the need to wake up at 5:30, at which point I'm not even going to try to wake up before her…I'm no hero.)

Still, this is my hope: To wake up just before 6AM as many days during the week as possible. Run three times each week. Complete morning devotions and prayer. Shower and do as much as I can to get ready for the day before Eisley wakes up.

I need to do this for myself. The rest of our days and weeks feel very consistent and comfortable…we've fallen into a nice little routine, and I feel ready to challenge myself a bit more. And mornings may be the perfect challenge. Sacrifice, even. (Especially for someone like me who cherishes sleep like no other.)

So, we'll see how it goes. One morning at a time. (Repeat, repeat, repeat…)

8 comments :

  1. I'm so grateful I'm a morning person, but having said that it's even hard for me to wake up before 6! However, I used to have to wake up before 5 to get to work on time so this feels almost indulgent! Coffee helps too. :)

    It's always hard to make a big change in your life at first. I'm about to overhaul my diet and I know it's going to make me want to scream but I keep telling myself that pretty soon I'll adjust!

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  2. It's not easy, but you can do it! The thing that helps me most is setting my alarm on the other side of the room towards my door so I have to get up and turn it off. Then I'm half way to the bathroom already and grab a full glass of water, which does wonders!

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  3. Good luck, girl! I'm trying to be a morning person, too. It makes such a difference to my day when I actually have time to get myself ready, get Sebastian ready, walk the dog, eat breakfast, make my lunch, and hang out a little before I have to be at work. Buuuuuuuut I have to get up 2-3 hours before work to make all that happen, which always seems wasteful to me (sleeeeeeeep).

    I'm somewhat blessed to have a child who will sleep in once in a while, but I've been trying to get him to wake up a little earlier, too, both so that we can spend some time together before work, and so that he actually takes a nap in the afternoon.

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  4. I'm sure you can do it! I'm not a morning person either and I'm glad my kids sleep in/play quietly in their rooms. I wish I was though because it would be nice to get things done!

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  5. I must admit, I woke up too early this morning to take husband to the airport. And having ALL THAT TIME before work was AHMAZING. But, really? It only happened because there was a distinct reason I needed to be out of bed. Beyond that... well... it'd be nice, but I don;t know if I could. Let us know how it progresses!

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  6. I've been dreaming of this, too. (It's always prettier in dreams, isn't it?) I've done well this week, rising early and going for a run, and I absolutely feel amazing. And very, very tired. Then again, sometimes it's nice to feel exhausted at the end of the day, because it means it was full. Good luck! :)

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  7. I go through phases when sometimes I love being awake early and other times all I can think about is sleeping more.

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  8. Perfect, I don't have time in the mornings, because I work half days, mornings only. But once my boys are in bed I devote 25 mins to myself to prepare for the next day. I pack my lunch, pick out my work clothes and tidy whatever mess is left from the day. I find on the days I don't take that time, I'm totally off the following morning. It's so important as moms to find those quiet moments to reflect and check in with ourselves. MY aunt pased away April 23rd and her passing has made me so much more aware of my role as a mom. I was devestated by her passing, yet the only time I could even think about her or allow myself to be sad was after my kids were in bed. I didn't do this consciously, it just happened. I would be washing dishes after they were in bed and start to sob. It made me realize that, as a mom, I ofte put my own feelings and thoughts on the backburner. It's not a bad thing, I just need to make sure that I carve out 30-60 minutes every day to check in with myself. Am I okay? Are there things I want or need? I'm a better mom for it, a better wife, a better person. Good luck finding your new routine. You deserve this :)

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