November 17, 2011

on who I am (at the moment)...

a new scarf.

I am…

…confident and calm one second, overwhelmed and floundering the next. It's very frustrating and a little ridiculous. I hate feeling so anxious.

…enjoying the coziness of a new scarf. And also appreciating the scarf weather that manages to show up here and there.

…trying to reevaluate a few things. Trying to figure out what needs to be taken off my plate in order for me to be a bit more centered. Trying to remember that most of the pressure I'm feeling is simply due to setting my expectations too high. Trying to say no, even when I feel obligated to say yes. Trying to figure out if finding a perfect balance is even possible.

…entirely too giddy about seeing Breaking Dawn at midnight tonight. (Don't judge me.)

…thankful for the success of a small crafting boutique my best friend hosted last weekend. Sweet friends, craftiness, muffins, and mimosas. Yes, I'm thinking we should do this much more often. I sold a bunch of felt wallets, eisley necklaces, and a few notecard sets. I'm thankful for all the people who took the time to stop by and support our creativity! (And I'm looking forward to adding the rest of the goodies to my etsy shop this week.)

…feeling incredibly spoiled after an evening spent being pampered with the lovely Katelin, thanks to the folks at Burke Williams spa. I've decided I want to live there. Amen.

…currently obsessed with the Frank Sinatra holiday station on Pandora, anything involving mass amounts of semisweet chocolate chips, trying to get Eisley to giggle (we have yet to get a full-on belly laugh), Suave Professionals dry shampoo, and Sister Wives.

…wondering who I've become, considering the one thing I really want for Christmas this year is a new vacuum.

…sleepy. All the time. More than I was when Eisley was a newborn, which doesn't make any sense.

…happiest on a rainy day. Spending a cozy morning with Jay and Eisley. Drinking coffee with delicious (albeit fattening) creamer and a hint of cinnamon. Staying in our PJs for longer than necessary.

…incredibly giddy about the holidays. I have a feeling they're going to be different this year. A good kind of different, because we have our tiny little family and so much to be thankful for.

17 comments :

  1. Oh yes, I know those feelings... unfortunately. Try to hold onto know that things do get easier as you continue to settle into your new normal. You probably feel a bit anxious and overwhelmed because you're tired and {HELLO!} your body is on a total roller coaster hormone-wise after giving birth and the months to follow. Hang in there mama. I'm sure you are doing just beautifully!

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  2. That last one made me smile a lot. :)

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  3. I'm asking for a steam mop for Christmas this year. WHO AM I?

    Enjoy Breaking Dawn!

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  4. theres nothing wrong with wanting a new vacuum for christmas. since I moved I only wish for 'kitchen stuff' and a waffle maker, haha :)

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  5. Giiiirl, do not underestimate the awesome of a new vacuum ;)

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  6. it was so lovely being spoiled together! and yay for the holidays and crafting things, you really do make the cutest things :)

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  7. I loved the last one the most, too. : ) I'm so happy for you!

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  8. Oh, I hear you on the "one minute calm and then overwhelmed"-feeling - it happens to me, too. I hope you can find more balance(and then pass on the wisdom to me :)).

    Love holiday crafting and can't wait to go home for the holidays. Are you going to see your family?

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  9. So much adorableness! Also, Frank Sinatra holiday channel? Yes, please!!!

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  10. I bought a new vacuum a few weeks ago and it has been my favourite thing! I also got excited about spending a bunch of money on groceries and receiving some free storage bins in return. I'm the kind of person who gets excited about storage bins and vacuums and I'm not afraid to say it! :)

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  11. I'm going to see Breaking Dawn too tonight! {see, no judging}.

    Also, you are the cutest and I seriously love all of your posts!!!

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  12. What a sweet post, and I am dying to know where that scarf is from!

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  13. The only item on my Christmas this year is a mop. A very NICE mop - but still. A mop. It must be a mom thing ...

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  14. Yay, Frank Sinatra! :)

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  15. I can't help but feel that we are best friends... I have to tell you how thankful I am for your blog. I just moved away from my family and friends to live with my fiance in Montana away from everyone I know...It is nice to read your blog and know that I am not the only one who feels anxious at times.

    I am so happy for you and your family this time of year. Enjoy!

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