February 15, 2011

on a note of gratitude...

thank you.
Although I wish it were possible to send each of you a note individually, I couldn't go another day without saying thank you. From the bottom of my melty (and currently overly-emotional) heart. To everyone who took the time to congratulate Jay and I with encouraging emails, blog comments and shout-outs on twitter, to snail-mail cards that make me want to smile and burst into happy-tears all at once, to happy thoughts and prayers.

I feel so lucky to have this incredible group of friends (and strangers!) so eager to share in my joy and excitement, and I can't even tell you how much every one of you mean to me.

When I poured my heart out to Jay last September, all I could really say to him was that being a mom has always been the one thing closest to my heart. More than finding the perfect career, more than having a big house, more than diamond rings on my fingers and a passport filled with stamps, more than any of that I just want to be a mom. I don't think he understood how intense that desire of mine was, and for the first time he seemed to realize that it was more than just a bit of baby fever or wanting to start a family just because someone else had. It was something so connected to all my hopes and dreams, and I truly believe that I had been given that desire for a reason.

Since finding out we were expecting the wee one, my life has changed immensely. I have this sense of calm that has washed over every aspect of my life – from my professional life to my personal life to my home life, and everything else that lingers in-between. I don't worry as much. A messy kitchen doesn't bother me. I've discovered this new appreciation and adoration for my husband. I've finally come to terms with the fact that most days I simply won't cross everything off my to-do list. I'm learning to hold close to the things that matter and simply let go of the things that don't. And, most importantly, I don't feel the urgent need to search for something more (as ridiculous as I'm sure that may sound to some people).

I know that life still has so much in store for me, but I feel like I've already been given the desires of my heart. And that gives me more peace than anything else I could possibly dream of.

So, thank you for letting me share this new adventure with you. Thank you for the advice, encouragement and smiles. Thank you for your friendship and "sisterhood". You have all made this exciting journey even more special for me.

And it's only just the beginning.

23 comments :

  1. This is such a sweet post! I am glad you are feeling so wonderfully happy while pregnant. Jen and I do not have any little ones, but we definitely plan to someday. For now I'm sticking with your blog, Ashley's at Our Little Apartment and browsing Old Navy's baby section. HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR BABY SECTION?!?!?!?

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  2. I didn't leave a comment on the original post because I was afraid you wouldn't see it! But congrats! And I'm also an August baby so clearly, I think that month is awesome. :) Can't wait to hear all about the pregnancy and read more about the little peanut. Congrats!

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  3. motherhood is a feeling like none other I've ever experienced. It has completed me in ways I didn't even know needed fulfilled. I quit my job to stay home with my son and I'm thankful for every single day when I see his sleepy cheeks wake up. you are right, it is just the beginning of the most wonderful journey life has to offer. Enjoy!

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  4. You are so sweet Kerri! And you are definitely meant to be a mom, more than anything else I can think of.

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  5. Awww, that's super sweet of you. I have the same feelings, I sometimes think about having kids and want to cry (retarded I know) in a happy way. I want a little family so bad. Someday. And we will live in a house near the woods, and little deer will come up to our porch and say hello....ok too much? :)

    Ps, send me your address if you will!!! <3

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  6. You're a sweetheart. :) I'm so glad you opened up to Jay, and even more glad that he listened, and EVEN MORE glad that your dearest wish is coming true. That's the greatest gift anyone can receive. Thanks for sharing it with us!

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  7. You deserve all the happiness in the world! Congratulations Kerri!

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  8. This made me teary eyed. You are incredible and honestly, I view you as a sister (even though we have yet to meet).
    I am looking forward to watching you go on this journey, encourage you and pray for you and your family.
    :)

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  9. I totally understand how it's what you have always wanted most. : ) And I've noticed that sense of calm you have. It makes me happy, and it gives me hope that I'll have that same feeling when my time comes, too. I'm so excited for you and Jay, and this little baby is already so lucky.

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  10. I can't wait to read more about your adventure into motherhood! And then to see photos of the growing little munchkin as he/she grows up!

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  11. I'm so excited for you! <3 It's going to be really awesome to read about your journey into motherhood. Awww! I was just having this conversation with my mom about how we can't just expect men to read our minds. They truly don't know how we really feel about something unless we come right out and tell them. And then once we do...well. I think it makes them go, "Well why didn't you just SAY that??" Haha. I'm so glad that your dreams are coming true! <3

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  12. I know you have been wanting this for so long and it makes me so happy to see how amazingly grateful and happy you are feeling at this very time. You deserve the best!

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  13. I've never been one of those girls who always wanted to be a mom, but as soon as I held my son in my arms, it was like something just clicked, like I had finally figured out my purpose. It's a pretty amazing feeling :D

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  14. You are just so incredibly sweet, I cannot get over it. I'm so thrilled you have such lovely things happening in your life. You deserve it my dear. <3 and love

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  15. You're sweet :)
    That is so wonderful that in your life, you have received something you've wanted so much :)
    I understand what you mean about not worrying about not searching for something more anymore. I don't think that's ridiculous at all.
    You're one of the lucky ones. To have something in your life to fulfill you. I'm hoping for that to happen in my life.
    It's great to be able to 'share' the journey with you, and it's more great for you to share your journey with us!

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  16. I'm very new to your blog, but I am SO incredibly happy for you and Jay! I have spent hours over the past few days reading old posts and getting to know you, and I'm so very encouraged by you! You are an amazing person and I feel very blessed to have the chance to be so encouraged by a complete stranger. Congrats and I can't wait to see your family grow! :)

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  17. kerri you are just the absolute cutest ever. i mean seriously. you are a truly lovely person and i couldn't be happier for you two.

    also, i miss you. it's been forever and we should really remedy that, stat! :)

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  18. I know I said this on your last post- but you are seriously the cutest pregnant lady! Glad to hear this has brought the calm it sounds like you were searching for :)

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  19. This post truly resonates with me...I feel the same way about becoming a mom one day. And as someone who is currently stressed about the pile of dishes in the sink and my ever-growing to-do list, it's refreshing to read about your shift in perspective. Sending you prayers and calm thoughts, friend!

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  20. Haven't stopped by your blog in awhile, and I'm SO happy and excited for you! Congratulations :-)

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  21. Hey, Kerri!!! I left you a blog award. ♥ I hope you like, your style is gorgeous and I am jealous! ;)

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  22. I haven't read you for a while and didn't know you were pregnant!! I'm so excited for you, having read before here somewhere how much you wanted kids and he wasn't quite ready. I'm on my second pregnancy at 30 and like you always wanted to be a mum. I'm so happy for you that soon you'll have a lovely little person to spend the rest of yours and jay's life with. Congratulations from a fan xx
    Sarah

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  23. Awwww really you are the one who deserves a thank you!
    Thank you for being who you are, thank you for being so open and honest, for inspiring us, for not being afraid to be yourself and for being and overall amazing person!!! I feel so blessed to have found you and your blog. You are so wonderful and reading your posts are always the highlight of my day. I have been going through a really difficult time this past year and you've helped make me feel better and look forward to the future. I could gush for hours haha so i'll stop before I enter crazy town. I am so glad that all your dreams are coming true and that everything feels right. You deserve the best xoxo

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