May 31, 2010

on who I am (at the moment)...

self.

I am...

...a girl who has been challenged beyond anything she thought she was capable of. Worry, stress and tears are all things that have been trying their hardest to swallow me whole the past few weeks. Most days, I'm gone 12 hours. Most days, I have every hour filled with responsibility and busyness. Most days, I have to remind myself to just breathe. However, one thing that has been surprisingly absent is self-doubt. I know I can do this job. I know I'll be great. And that kind of makes it all worth it.

...realizing how much I miss writing.

...happy to be married to a man who will just sit with me when I need to cry, listen to me when I need to vent, accept my apologies on days when my temper runs short, make me the best margaritas and laugh with me about pretty much anything and everything.

...thrilled to have had the greatest three-day weekend full of relaxation, delicious food and time with my husband.

...always more content after a morning spent in the sunshine.

...presently planning a tiny craft show with my best friend. This weekend I've been up to my elbows in felt, thread and paper as I attempt to have enough items to offer our friends and family. I haven't made time for crafting at all lately (due to my schedule and general need for time to just zone out at the end of a busy day) and it's been so refreshing to have had time to just create. Our little craft show in in a couple weeks, and I can't wait! Hurrah!

...absolutely going to write a Bloggers in Sin City recap one of these days. Cross my heart. But, in short? It was all kinds of lovely. And incredibly needed. And aggressively delightful.

...hating that sometimes there is really nothing you can do to help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Which is awful to realize and nearly impossible to accept - especially when your heart is so wrapped up in the situation. My emotions are rather tied up in knots these days.

...attempting to spend less, read more, fight negativity.

...going to be giving a tour of my crafting nook later on in the week! Yes, I finally took photos to share with all of you. Yes, it's been forever and I'm an awful procrastinator. Yes, I did some serious cleaning and organization before I took the photos because I would love for people to think I live in a pristine environment. No, you're never going to see photos of our entryway closet.

...quite sleepy, quite often. I would approve of a daily nap time for adults. Amen.

23 comments :

  1. A craft show sounds great, girl! That is so exciting!

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  2. You, my friend, are aggressively delightful. I'm pulling for you on the job thing---you're going to be amazing, just hang in there. In fact, I'm quite sure you already ARE amazing. I wish I could come to your craft show! I'm sure it'll be lovely. Sending you so much love, my dear! Mwah!

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  3. lovely post Kerri!
    just remember to keep enjoying the little things :)

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  4. Regarding your "helping others" bullet point, it's a terrible feeling. One of my favorite musicians wrote lyrics that resonate with me when I'm trying desperately to help a friend who doesn't want it: "You cannot bring somebody joy,but you can find it by trying; you can't save someone from death, but you can love them while they're dying." Do what you can.

    And take it easy on yourself! Don't forget to breathe. <3

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  5. You are amazing, talented, and wonderful. You can completely do this job and I know it.

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  6. "...hating that sometimes there is really nothing you can do to help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Which is awful to realize and nearly impossible to accept - especially when your heart is so wrapped up in the situation."
    I know EXACTLY how you feel on this.
    And, I am overly anticipating this craft nook post. :)

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  7. I am eagerly awaiting this craft nook post. And I can't wait to hear how the craft show goes for you. Hang onto the little moments right now, and just stay true to yourself. :)

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  8. Nice to hear from you! Miss you around these bloggy parts, but glad real life is going so well!

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  9. Life can be incredibly overwhelming sometimes, huh? Although time is short for you, just know that it won't always be this way. A start to a new job is always a crazy & stressful experience, but you KNOW you've got this! You are blessed with so many gifts. Things WILL get easier! Hang in there girl :)

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  10. looking forward to the craft room views :)

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  11. I love this post..
    Life is just too much sometimes but we just keep on going:)
    Eventually things get better right?!

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  12. Amen on the naps. Good luck with your crafty pursuits.

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  13. I vote for the naps, too. MM naps.
    I got sick over christmas and ended up with chronic fatigue syndrome. Naps are an absolute essential item!

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  14. I'm a huge fan of an adult afternoon nap, and frequently have one! Although it's getting to the point where I'm so used to it, that at 2pm at work I accidentally said it was time for my nap. I think they thought I was joking...

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  15. love this post :) no shame in the nappin' or messy craft nooks. i think nooks of any type are meant to be a bit messy! at least you don't have a migratory craft nook that moves daily and leaves a trail of googly eyes, dried mod-podge, and paper scraps!

    keep on truckin', girl!

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  16. When life gets in the way of blogging, just embrace life, live in the moment, and remember to breathe! Looking forward to your craft nook photos :)

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  17. Sooo...what did this post do for me, you ask?

    Made me miss the crap out of you, that's what!

    You're like the little Kerri that could. Chuga chuga, you can do it!

    Calling you soon. Need to catch up! When you have time to breathe, that is.

    xoxo

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  18. Oh! I can't wait to see your crafting nook! I hope that your new job isn't taking too much out of you & that soon things calm down and allow you a lot of space to breathe =)

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  19. Havn't stoped by in a while... but glad i did. lady when in Oly lets get out and do something hike and vent, drinks and laugh, listen and encourage all sound in order. :-) Love you Tennille

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  20. Napping is awesome. I am all for them. Naps and I? We are good, good friends.

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  21. Naps are one of the best inventions ever.

    These posts always make me so happy and want to fly to LA to hug you. I'm sorry about the emotions tying you up in knots lately; I've been thinking of you often and hope that you can find your way through them.

    xoxo

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  22. I just stumbled across this blog randomly and already (if I may be so brave to say) adore you. Keep doing what you're doing, and being who you are. I think big things are in store for you.

    I'll be back... ;)

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  23. This is provoking and evocative. What an amazing post.

    P.S. Stopping by from fallingfromprams.wordpress.com

    Your blog is wonderful!

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