December 31, 2009

on myself, four years ago...

"Like I say every day, I miss my sisters. I hate living so far away. And even if they're so different than me, we're basically different versions of eachother. At the core, we're the exact same thing. One more complacent than the other, one more prideful, one more adventurous, one more simplistic, one more creative. It's the way we've always been. And with those relationships, I know that I can never be replaced or upstaged. I need that, for some reason - I need to know how much I matter to people. Maybe that's my tragic flaw, because it's something in this life that has brought me the most joy and the most pain."

- written by me, at 21.

16 comments :

  1. You always make me want sisters, dang it!

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  2. good post. I know how you feel :)

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  3. I don't have any sisters...and always wish I did.

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  4. I want sisters!!! Do you still feel the same way, or is it to point out how things have changed? :) xx

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  5. Aww that's so sweet! I feel like that about my sister, so different, yet so the same (um, that may or may not be a No Doubt lyric, win!).

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  6. I too, right now, need to know how much I matter to people. I can 100% relate to that statement and so glad that I'm not alone in feeling that; even though this was written four years ago. Thanks for posting this Miss Kerri. <3
    - L

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  7. I miss my family very much too...even this new years eve...I wish we were all together!

    sandy toe

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  8. this post makes my heart ache. for a few reasons. one because i miss my sisters + you said it just right. the different but still the same thing. i miss them so bad. especially on this holiday evening so lonely and far away.
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    and two because i'm sort of missing my 21 year old self. she was wiser than me now somehow. somehow. and i wish i could tell her to be gentler with herself. because the next seven years would be rough + tough and yet still oh so sweet.
    i'm going to dig into my boxes and find my journals. go back for a minute.
    thanks.
    love, lindsay

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  9. Wow you write so beautifully! And now I wish I had sister!

    Have a great new year! :)

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  10. You've always been such a great writer - it's evident. I've always wanted a sister. I love my brother, but I know it's not the same bond. I guess that's why I'm so reliant on my girl friends as "sisters."

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  11. I gotta say I'm like that with my brothers too :/ I can't imagine if I had a sister, sisterly bonds usually are stronger.

    And I wouldn't call it a tragic flaw :) I see a lot of people aren't close at all with their families and they ignore each other, I would call that sad. You are lucky.

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  12. I love your old journal entry posts! They're usually very sweet.

    Also in regards to your last post, I love that your profile name is Wishcake. It just fits... And I adore your blog and have been reading for over a year now. Your blog is one of the very first blogs I started to read. Well besides the blogs of people I knew in real life. I hope you keep blogging for a long time because it's always a pleasure to read what you have to say.

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  13. What a beautiful writer you are :) Your 21 year old self sounds infinitely more wise and mature than my own!

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  14. "I need to know how much I matter to people. Maybe that's my tragic flaw, because it's something in this life that has brought me the most joy and the most pain."

    I could have written this now. Is it still true for you today?

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  15. ohhh, wow, this is amazing. do I EVER know how you feel. and today I'm missing my sisters so much it hurts!!

    thanks for sharing this :)

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