August 20, 2009

on who I am (at the moment)...

hey! it's me!

I am...

...five days away from turning twenty-five, and am slowly accepting that number as not so scary. I guess there is just something about twenty-five that freaks me out. Kind of like, "Sweet mother of mercy! I'm halfway through my twenties and what have I done with my liiiiiife?" But I think I need to take a step back and realize all the things I have done. I mean, I'm not a complete potato when I stop and think about it.

...unsure of what I want for my birthday. Or what I want to do. Have I mentioned I'm a non-decision maker? Right.

...$100 richer than I was yesterday, and am already planning another Ikea adventure for tomorrow. Next on my list: new bathroom towels and curtains for our bedroom. (And maybe some Swedish meatballs.)

...almost completely done with my new "crafting nook" and still have yet to take some decent photos of it! Argh! In any case, I adore having my own space, all to myself. It makes me incredibly giddy.

...attempting to continue running on a regular basis, even though my legs have been a little ridiculous. For the first time since beginning my running shenanigans two years ago, my left knee hurts sporadically and my calves are, quite frankly, meatloaf. Must work on this.

...knee-deep in season two of Lost, and loving every minute.

...presently feeling the urge to have a more personal style statement, and unsure of how to go about doing that. Sometimes I think I'm too much of a generic Target-girl to have one. But I'm sure that's not true.

...having the most realistic dreams ever these days. I've always remembered my dreams in great detail, but lately, I've had so many of those dreams where you wake up and continue to feel the emotions you did while asleep. Love, overwhelming sadness, fear, elation. It's a little odd when that happens. It sort of carries me through my day, and I can't stop thinking of what I dreamt about.

...eager to do more with my photography (incredibly inspired by the "real" photographers I know) but hardly know where to begin.

...continuing to learn a lot about personal contentment, the keys to a happy marriage, what it's like to be a bit more brave, and how to properly install plastic wall anchors. (That last one is actually very important. Who would have thought?)

...in a word: happy. For the moment, at least. And hopefully for the rest of the day.

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  1. Good for you! It's so important (for me at least) to find the positives about where I'm at. Just makes me feel so much better when I wake up in the morning.

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  2. I liked this post. Somehow you make me feel more normal... I hope you understand what I mean. Also, installing plastic wall anchors is EXTREMELY important.

    And that's all I'll say about that.

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  3. I guess I don't know what line of business your in... but have you ever thought of interior design or something? Every pic of your home looks amazingly cute!
    Just a suggestion!

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  4. Those are awesome photos of you.

    I think shopping at Target gives you more style if you want my opinion because you have to be able to put pieces together to make outfits =)

    Happy early 25th birthday!

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  5. I can't wait to see the crafting nook =) I'm sure it is lovely.

    I'm sure your husband has lots of running tips for you, but with the knee & calves problem, you might want to look into new shoes? The added comfort and bounce will take a lot of pressure off your knees. And if your shoes ARE new and fit properly, try running around a track for your next run. It has a bit more spring to it, so it isn't as brutal as pounding the pavement.

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  6. I just love all of your "On Who I Am" posts. They are so real. And such a great way to take inventory on life and where you are in it.

    And excuse me, I think Target is absolutely amazing. And if there is shame in being a generic-Target girl, I can soak that shame ALLL up my friend!!!

    Keep up the happy. =D

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  7. I had such a hard time with turning 25. I was completely freaked out about...then it happened, and I was totally cool with it. Something about turning 25 just gives you a wiggins.

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  8. I felt the same way when I turned 25 in March. It was the exact same feeling of being half way through that kind of freaked me out. But now I like it, I even like saying it. I'm 25... Sounds mature and young all at the same time!

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  9. Funny you should mention that, because I had a CRAZY dream about YOU last night.

    You had a theme park.

    Seriously.

    It was a Kerri theme park and we rode on a roller coaster together.

    Don't say you haven't achieved anything in your 25 years - you have a freaking theme park!

    :)

    Also, I am way to generic with my fashion. It's comfy-slash-cute. That's all. A little sad, really.

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  10. I love your "who I am" posts... nice way to reflect on yourself :)

    Note to self: Need to do that!

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  11. i can't wait to see pictures of your crafting nook. i so need/want one of those so its exciting to see how you pulled yours together!

    also, i always want to up my style a little bit but then i just feel so comfortable and happy in my regular (and cheap!) target clothes that i go for comfort more than a defining style. i am definitely still in that middle place where i am not really sure about it though.

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  12. sounds pretty good to me!!! :) :)
    bottom line: ur happy!
    :)

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  13. Wait, you can get Swedish meatballs at Ikea?

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  14. I love the pics, and this post!

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  15. What's up with everyone turning 25 lately?! I'll be 25 in December. I feel like I'm going from 21 to 25 because I don't really remember being 22 or 23 or EVEN 24 now? Probably because no one ever asks me how old I am anymore. It's not like the old days where we'd ask age/sex/location online. :P

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  16. I've been trying to do something about my generic Target style too. This has included warming my heart to Forever 21 (Sometimes I go in there and I think, "This place is too loud!" and then I get scared I've turned into my grandma.), not buying things that I already have a lot of (fitted tees, things that black, shoes that are brown or black, silver jewelry), and working on combining things in a "riskier" way. I'm doing this with my apartment decor too and adding aqua pillows to my red couch. Eek! :D

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  17. I love this post...I really do. Happy birthday! Mine is next Wednesday! :)

    I am sort of freaking out, though.

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  18. First of all, you should know you're about the cutest thing ever, but if you're looking for a great book about personal style, check out Style Statement by Danielle LaPorte. I'll be writing about it ASAP once I'm done (almost there) and I know Ev'Yan loved it, too! A great read for sort of defining yourself overall. I loved it.

    Still? You're just about the cutest ever, as is.

    xoxo

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  19. Very cute list. Don't worry about turning 25... it happens and it doesn't feel any different. But 26 is a number I am fearing!

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  20. Oh, how I love the Swedish meatballs...I always buy them frozen when I go there so my freezer is stocked, plus I get the meatball meal in the cafeteria with the potatoes and lingonberry jam. So good!

    By the way, just started reading your blog and I love it!

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  21. love the photos at the top, you crack me up. and yay for birthdays! 25th birthdays to be exact. they're pretty amazing!woo.

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  22. I am so happy that you're watching Lost...it's just the best. Wait until fall rolls around, and you have a chilly, wet weekend, and you and your husband can stay in with piles of chocolate and candy (or swedish meatballs), cuddle up under blankets on the couch and watch AN ENTIRE SEASON!!

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  23. Yay for Ikea adventures! They're always the best.

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  24. What a lovely post. Thanks for sharing.

    I love Lost and IKEA :)

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  25. I remember being terrified of turning 25, but really, 25 was the year I really came into my own. It was the year I started to really understand myself and my life.

    Also, I hope you get (got) those swedish meatballs!I love eating at the cafeteria there so that I can get a little lingonberry sauce to go with them.

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  26. Oh goodness, 25 was HARD for me last year. But I think a lot of it was tied up in being single and stuff like that. 26 seemed to come much easier this year, and I'm finding myself more and more content with where my years have brought me. Here's to wishing you a happy 25th!

    PS - I'm a LOST fanatic. I know what you mean.

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  27. What cute pics! I already asked for a trifle bowl for my 25th. Ha! I am so boring!

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  28. You're adorable. And I know the feeling. I had that feeling for my 24th. One more year til I'm old and will surely need a wheelchair.

    By the way, the meatloaf comment made me spit up my Dollar General fizzy drink. Almost ruined my laptop... Don't do it again! haha

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  29. Those are such positive things! Purchasing things either for my wardrobes or for my bedroom always make me happy too. I don't know how I'm going to be yet when I'm 25 ( 3 more years ) but I definitely know I wanna be as happy and loved as you.

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  30. Kerri, who you are at the moment is a lovely person!

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  31. love the pictures!

    I turn 25 in a few months, but I plan on going to a psychic! and then to a restaurant with my faves and having fabulous food and drinks. I'm not really about the presents anymore as much as I am about making great birthday memories with good friends.

    And all this talk about Ikea... I need to go sometime soon!

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  32. 25 was a weird age for me to hit, to be honest. I had felt that same way. I hadn't accomplished anything I wanted to. But...I had to remember what it was I had accomplished in life. And that was a lot.

    I'm now 27. And I still have those feelings sometime. I think it is a natural part of getting older...It makes us appreciate what we've gone through and makes us look forward to making new goals to meet as we grow older. :)

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  33. Oh my goodness, Miss Kerri, you are amazing. And for the record, I love you style. I'm actually quite jealous of it. You're one of those people/bloggers that I look up to in terms of style. You seem so well put-together, comfortable, casual yet chic, but also with a twist. So yeah. Amazing.

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  34. Oh my gosh, don't get me started. We had to install anchors in our ceiling to get our pot rack hanging, and I feel like I've definitely aged as a result.

    I love your where I am posts, they make me happy- beautiful, as always.

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  35. Love the list! Sounds very good. :)

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  36. At the end of the day, being happy is what matters most.

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  37. I adore this post - so very cute and true. Love it.

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  38. I'm turning 25 in december and I'm freaking out about it. A few months ago I wanted to have a big party with a limo and dinner and dancing and then found out that 3 of my very best friends are moving away so now I have no idea what I want to do.

    But I did just order this book from amazon about defining your personal style statement and I CANT WAIT for it to get there. I'll let you know if it's good.

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  39. Um, did you say 'style statement'? 'Cause *I* know how you can go about doing that!! There's a book! Written by Danielle LaPorte! Who is pretty much the bomb and then some! You need to go get it IMMEDIATELY because you will love it! It's called 'Style Statement' (no word of a lie). (And no, I do not receive any proceeds from the sales of said book.)(And yes, all those exclamation marks WERE absolutely necessary.)

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  40. Maybe this is just me, but when I think about all the women I know between the ages of 25 and 35ish, I actually get excited about getting older. There's just something so graceful about these women who have truly come into their own as individuals but who are still filled with youthful energy and optimism. Thinking about that makes me want to *embrace* aging. Maybe you know some people like this? Or maybe it is just me... Either way, I know that I find these women inspiring! :)

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  41. I just turned 24 a couple months ago, and I wish I accomplished as much as you have before your 25th.

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  42. Ikea always makes me happy. I can be happy for three days just thinking about going there on the weekend.

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