on a weekend trip...

In a few hours, I'll be back in Washington, most likely peeling my two youngest sisters from my body. (Actually, I need to make up for lost time in the form of hugs. So, I will succumb to any and all snuggling that is offered.) I'm still incredibly surprised that it worked out for me to get the weekend off of work - my coworkers nearly had to peel me from their bodies, due to my extreme joy and thankfulness. (Which I'm sure was enjoyed by all parties involved. Except maybe human resources. But, whatever.)

In any case, I'm happy. I rarely do anything for the 4th of July - not since moving here, anyway. Usually I would just tag along to someone else's celebration...which was always nice, but still, it never feels right without my parents or sisters. Of course, I'll be dividing my time between my family and the in-laws during this trip. Which will be lovely, no matter what - my husband's family is absolutely wonderful. (I'm lucky beyond all reason, really.) Jay and I are arriving on different days, which will work out fine - I'll be able to spend some extra time with my parents and youngest sisters. I'm thrilled! I'll be enjoying a bit of time with each family. It will be perfect.

There are so many thoughts that have been swimming around in my head the last several days. There is so much that I really want to write about, because it always helps clear my head. I guess it will have to wait until I return. It's been one of those weeks where I'm kind of a mess of different emotions, and I'm really searching for some kind of peace. Peace about my present place in life, my body, my self esteem, my hopes and goals, the things I can't seem to stop worrying about, the things I believe in, the people who will always take up space in my heart long after seeing them for what may have been the last time.

So, anyway. I'm hoping to just take time to relax and enjoy every moment this weekend. To not worry or wonder or fret.

The rest can wait.