July 2, 2009

on a weekend trip...

In a few hours, I'll be back in Washington, most likely peeling my two youngest sisters from my body. (Actually, I need to make up for lost time in the form of hugs. So, I will succumb to any and all snuggling that is offered.) I'm still incredibly surprised that it worked out for me to get the weekend off of work - my coworkers nearly had to peel me from their bodies, due to my extreme joy and thankfulness. (Which I'm sure was enjoyed by all parties involved. Except maybe human resources. But, whatever.)

In any case, I'm happy. I rarely do anything for the 4th of July - not since moving here, anyway. Usually I would just tag along to someone else's celebration...which was always nice, but still, it never feels right without my parents or sisters. Of course, I'll be dividing my time between my family and the in-laws during this trip. Which will be lovely, no matter what - my husband's family is absolutely wonderful. (I'm lucky beyond all reason, really.) Jay and I are arriving on different days, which will work out fine - I'll be able to spend some extra time with my parents and youngest sisters. I'm thrilled! I'll be enjoying a bit of time with each family. It will be perfect.

There are so many thoughts that have been swimming around in my head the last several days. There is so much that I really want to write about, because it always helps clear my head. I guess it will have to wait until I return. It's been one of those weeks where I'm kind of a mess of different emotions, and I'm really searching for some kind of peace. Peace about my present place in life, my body, my self esteem, my hopes and goals, the things I can't seem to stop worrying about, the things I believe in, the people who will always take up space in my heart long after seeing them for what may have been the last time.

So, anyway. I'm hoping to just take time to relax and enjoy every moment this weekend. To not worry or wonder or fret.

The rest can wait.

28 comments :

  1. Have fun with your families!

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  2. I know you'll have such an amazing time with you family. Relish in the moments you have together. :]

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  3. Reconnecting with the old people & places where our heart still resides is usually such a good "peace bringer.". Wishing you the lovliest of weekends & sending you lots of love, friend.

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  4. I love you. You're amazing. Have a wonderful time and TAKE LOTS OF PHOTOS! :)

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  5. Time with family is always good therapy. Hope it helps balance things out for you. Sounds like you just need some time to process.

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  6. Enjoy your trip, dollface!

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  7. I'm so happy for you! Nothing else comes close to celebrating holidays with family.

    And who knows, maybe getting to spend time with all of those loved ones will help give you clarity on all of those crazy emotions!

    Either way, have a safe trip and ENJOY! :)

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  8. Yay! Family time is the best. Enjoy the weekend!

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  9. Have fun this weekend and soak up as much family love you can!

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  10. Have a wonderful time with your families!! :)

    Tyler and I are going to Washington to visit his family and some of my relatives for Thanksgiving or Christmas. I haven't been to Washington for 3 years (I think?). Too long!

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  11. Hope you have a fun and safe trip! And I hope the weather is awesome!

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  12. I think this weekend with your family will really help you, Kerr. You seem to be stressed and (maybe?) overthinking things lately, and I think some time with the people you love most will do good things to nourish your soul.

    So excited for you. :)

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  13. Nothing better than having fun with your family and catching up on national holidays :) have fun!

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  14. Aw.. have fun with your family (ies) ;)

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  15. Yay for family time :) Hope that being 'home' again is relaxing and wonderful!

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  16. Have fun! I love family time!! Well, most of the time :)

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  17. Have fun! :) By the way, I LOVE the new blog design.

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  18. aw have a great time! sounds like it's going to be a perfect trip all around.

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  19. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Both my family and my in laws live in the same town...so when we visit it is nice to be able to see both of them. However, I'm always conflicted about how much time to spend with each...blah, blah. This has become an issue...

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  20. It seems like every post you write, there's at least one part of it that I feel 100% connected to. Almost like, you wrote it for me. I feel like I am in the exact same place as you in the last paragraph. My mind has been going a million miles a minute, filled with things I'm worried about, happy about, upset about, the things i need to get done, the things i want to get done, etc. I need to find that peace too.

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  21. Have a wonderful trip- topping your heart up with love for your sisters sounds like an amazing way to centre yourself. Wishing you peace, contentment, and buckets of joy this weekend!

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  22. Enjoy your family time! Having in-laws you get on with is one of the great joys in life I think.

    Also, remember you are awesome, lovely! :)

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  23. Hmm, it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one around struggling with the big questions about my place in the world. But it's nice to have a bit of a break from it all, that's for sure.

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  24. That sounds like a wonderful 4th of July weekend!

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  25. oooh la la.. your writing makes me happy. am definitely happy to land in your lovely little space. have a sweet time with your sisters.

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  26. I hope you were able to find the peace that you need! I understand what you mean regarding the body, self-esteem and etc. Big hugs and hope you had a great 4th!

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  27. I hope you had a great 4th with your family! Spending time around family always seems to balance me.

    PS - I left a little award for you over on my blog!

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