July 11, 2009

on myself, six years ago...

"I find myself feeling so apart from everyone else. I find myself discovering happiness by looking at the shapes of clouds or wearing the same jeans four days in a row. I find myself questioning where I am and what the point is of anything I do. I find myself lying in bed at night, talking to God, and realizing that I hadn't talked to him half as much as I would have liked during the day. Quite frankly, I don't know what to do with myself."

- written by me, at 18.

17 comments :

  1. This post made me open a pile of old diaries I maintained when I was in school =). Totally cute.

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  2. that is so pretty! thank you for sharing that!

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  3. I love that you post old journal entries.

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  4. I'm 24 and I still feel this way. I love how self-aware you were at such a young age. I'm still working on this..

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  5. This post made me wish that I had kept a diary when I was younger. Then I would have something to look back on now. xx

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  6. That was me about 4 years ago, at your age now. At 18 I was crazily exercising (wish I had the urge now...) and studying and life seemed so rich. Now it's different for me, a more mellow mummy world with writing on the side.

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  7. Oh! I love that you wore your jeans 4 days in a row, I still struggle with that. People always give me funny looks if I wear the same pair of jeans too often . . . I have many pairs, but they get so much more comfy if you wear them loads! :)

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  8. Those are really sweet words. I have days when I wear a pair of pants a couple of days in a row too.

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  9. That's pretty deep for an 18-year old. I believe my journals said things like, "Ooh the cute guy talked to me today." I like yours much more.

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  10. You always have such thoughtful 'thoughts'...it's so real. Thanks for sharing!

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  11. This actually inspires me to try and find happiness from the simple things again.

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  12. Awww, this is beautiful! Like someone else mentioned, its so neat that you were so self-aware, even back then.

    Did you write this in a written journal or online somewhere?

    This makes me want to dig out my old writing from several years back!

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  13. Thats me, now. :) Do you think your still like this?

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  14. i find myself reading this and feeling less alone.

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  15. It's great that you can look back and reflect on your old writings. I love it!

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  16. It's great that you can look back and reflect on your old writings. I love it!

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