May 7, 2009

on who I am (at the moment)...

self portrait thursday.

I am...

...feeling happy, healthy, full of hope.

...experiencing a bit of wanderlust, and sometimes wish that I could just keep on driving instead of reaching whatever destination I'm heading towards.

...incredibly thrilled to have gone bathing suit shopping and felt confident and comfortable in my body for the first time in a long while. I even found an adorable new bathing suit that fits just perfectly! I was amazed, and excited.

...working on my patience, especially when it comes to my relationship with my husband. I'm learning that sometimes it's okay for us to disagree, that sometimes it's okay to go to bed angry, that sometimes we're going to have days where we're just completely off. Because really, the bright days seem all the brighter because of these things.

...officially addicted to seven layer bean dip. It's my drug. And I refuse to go to rehab. Mmmm.

...slightly burned, thanks to an afternoon spent lying on the beach. It's days like this that I absolutely adore living in Southern California. Going to the beach in May? Yes, thank you.

...attempting to plow through Steph's 30 Flippin' Days of Fitness challenge, but hesitating to actually say it out loud because I'm afraid I'll jinx it. So, let's just say that, off the record, I'm doing it. Please join us. It will be fun. I promise.

...spending more money than usual. But, that's okay. It feels good to spend, especially because I end up saving most of the time. (Things I've purchased: a Chi flat iron, a new bathing suit, an adorable bag for my library books, some new crafting supplies and several adorable things from Forever 21. All worth it.)

...in the mood for country music. I can't get enough of it, really. I guess there's just something about it that is just comforting. It reminds me of growing up. It reminds me of being young. It reminds me of the time when things were much more simple. Also, it's just fun to sing to, obviously. "Maaaayyybeee it was Meeemphissss!"

...very, very ready for Summer. I don't think I have any big plans, but I have no doubt it's going to be brilliant just the same.

...an artist, a writer, a crafter, a photographer, an at-the-top-of-my-lungs car-singer, a listener, a dreamer, a wife, a lover, a sister, a daughter, a believer, a little girl at heart. I am all of these things. It feels good to realize and embrace all of them, to be proud of them. Proud of myself.

33 comments :

  1. I am in love with 7 layer bean dip too. I always eat way too much, & I end up feeling sick afterward, but it's just so good!

    I can't wait to see you again in Vegas!!! =]

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  2. So, where can I find this all-magical, confidence-boosting bathing suit department???? OOO! And I love my chi straightner. It was God's gift to my hair. :)

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  3. You are amazing and you should be incredibly proud of who you are!

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  4. I totally feel you on the wanderlust. Days like today, I miss having a car to climb into late at night and drive anywhere just for the ride.

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  5. Your forgot lovely. You're very lovely:)

    Amen to confident bathing suit shopping and embracing the dip addiction! It's a victory for women with the munchies everywhere!:)

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  6. Adorable photo, miss! Sounds like you're in a really good place right now.

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  7. *waves* I'm new here, but wanted to stop by and say hello because I'll be meeting you in less than a month in Vegas. (OK, that just sounded creepy. I'm not. I swear.)

    I'm totally feeling you on the wanderlust thing right now, too. I absolutely cannot wait for the summer because I already have a few trips planned (something I could have never foreseen!)

    Vegas is going to be amazing!

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  8. I absolutely agree wholeheartedly about the Country music. I grew up on that kind of music, and when my parents divorced, it divorced from me!!! But I am recently getting back to it and loving it. My favorites at the moment are Little Big Town and Rascal Flatts (duh). LBT has a song called "Boondocks" thats just so good. I in no way grew up in the boons, but I can still belt out in the car, "I FEEEEL NOOOOO SHAAAAME I WAS BOOOOORN AND RAAAAAISED IN THE BOOOOONDOOOOOCKS!!!"
    Country really is just bottom line humble and homey.
    Well have a beautiful day, Wishcake, you are just purely precious. =D

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  9. I like this. I may need to do a post like this sometime soon. Seems like a good processing exercise. Good for you!

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  10. I've been enjoying country music more lately.. I didn't grow up with it though. It's a new and gentler sound for me.

    And I might try the fitness (shhhh!) thing with you. I want to get out and about more.. and lose my baby tummy!!

    Loving your blog.

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  11. I turn to country music too, for comfort! I am a southern girl at heart...well it's an odd combination of half Bible-belt, half European.

    You are just lovely, I'm glad you are feeling so incredibly comfortable in your own skin...it's a coveted feeling that not a lot of people have and so freeing when you do. :)

    Lovelovelove.

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  12. Maybe it was Southern summer niiiights... maybe it was YOU, maybe it was ME, but sure felt riiiiight :)

    (I'm from Memphis. Don't even GET me started on that old school country music. I can Sawyer Brown with the best of them. Sugarland? Ain't got NOTHIN' on some Dixie Chicks and The Judds)

    :) AH! You just made my night.

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  13. That's amazing! You sound positively happy and upbeat and really quite satisfied with who you are! Good on you!
    Ahh beach...I definitely want to do that. The beach in May here is probably the same as the beach in May where you are =)

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  14. Good call on buying the Chi straightener! I've had mine for over 3 years now & ADORE IT. :)

    You should post a pic of your new library books bag!

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  15. I'm going to agree with Lily... I like late 80s/90s country. Maybe more for its nostalgia but it's still good stuff. And Sugarland makes my ears bleed but apparently I'm the only one who is not a fan of them. Oh well!

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  16. I, too, am an at-the-top-of-my-lungs car-singer. And I'm learning, at 25, to love and be proud of myself as who I am.

    Reading your blog today helps me to look at myself in a more positive way.

    Happy Friday! And keep on smiling. :]

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  17. You're starting to freak me out, Kerri. First of all I was shaking my head in agreeance about the being comfortable with my body for the first time in a LONG time part. I literally was thinking that to myself yesterday. And second, I was agreeing with the disagreeing part with the sig. other. The relationship would be absolutely boring if you agreed on EVERYTHING, you know? And lastly, the fact that you've been listening to nostalgic country lately and the fact that I just recently downloaded a bunch (including maybe it was memphis!!!!) just plain makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

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  18. That picture is WAY too adorable. And I LOVE your shirt. :)

    I feel really good about my body right now, but have a hard time finding a bathing suit that I want to wear around my in-laws in June when we go on vacation...something about a bikini and my father-in-law just seems like an awkward combo. Hehe.

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  19. I totally have my gigantic white revlon straightner still..i heart it. I'm sure you already know, but at Pandora.com you can pick a artist and make that your station, and they play songs by that artist PLUS ones that sound like it.. makes sense? maybe :) oh.. its freee :) :)

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  20. Patience w/a husband is unbelievably difficult for me. When you are married to someone SO DIFFERENT from yourself, and are not patient at all, it makes for some nerve-racking, hair splitting moments/days! Thank God we have forever to work at it.

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  21. this weather really has been amazing, i just wish i lived closer to the beach so i could go. oy.

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  22. 7 layer bean dip = Satan There is no other way to put it. It tastes SOOOO good but it's not good for you if you have the amount I would love to inhale :(

    Thanks for mentioning the 30 Flippin' Days of Fitness, I hadn't heard of it yet and I just started on a fitness thing myself...I joined in!

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  23. 7 layer bean deep is the SHIT.

    yummmm

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  24. I can't even tell you how much I love that photo

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  25. I love how we are all certain things at certain times, and I love how good you are at expressing it. I know I change from day to day, week to week, and it's nice to know I am not the only one!

    The last bit is the best. Isn't that just so true, we are all so many things, but we should all be proud and happy with who we are.

    You are such a doll!

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  26. I just purchased an entire outfit from Forever21 for $30. It opened at the Valley mall yesterday! I could hardly contain my elation while walking around the store. People were probably staring at me like... "That girl is grinning for no apparent reason... odd..."

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  27. sometimes you gotta sleep it off, a new day a new morning sometimes helps. and 7 layer bean dip for me is only a superbowl indulgence, because really, you can't just have a dip or two of the cheese, sour cream, guacamole, bean, olive, salsa, (insert 7th..) goodness, must.inhale.it.all. yum!

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  28. You are absolutely beautiful in that photo! And how adorable is that shirt?

    Happy to hear things are going so well for you :)

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  29. Lady! I love this photo of you! You look absolutely beautiful! And I love your top! SO cute.

    Yummmm bean dip!

    Congrats on finding a cute bathing suit! Yay, that's so awesome!

    Dude, I totally just want to drive and drive and drive. Or John can drive, I'll sit in the passenger seat. Ha.

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  30. I love that pic. You take the prettiest pictures!

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  31. This self portrait is beeeeautiful. :) And somedays I just love to blast country music. It makes me want to go run in the sprinklers and drink iced tea

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