March 30, 2009

on some words and happiness...

"Everyone says 'Don't look down,' but I did look down,
at where I've been, how far I've come, how high I've climbed.
Where I thought I'd made a single trail in the snow, I've made a thousand,
blighted by debris, the bits of me I've left behind."
- Lori Lansens, The Girls

I just finished reading this book, and when I read these specific words, it was one of those moments where I realize I've just read the exact thing I needed to read at that exact moment. It sounds incredibly dramatic, but I wanted to smile and cry at the same time. I love those moments where I feel completely connected to someone else's words. It's as though I'm finally able to fully understand something that has been scrambled up in the back of my mind, and all it took was seeing it written out to really view it clearly.

It so perfectly describes what I've been feeling lately.

And, really, isn't that how everyone should look at their lives - whether you're twenty-four or seventy? Realizing that you haven't walked though life thus far unseen or unimportant? It is absolutely true. And absolutely relevant, no matter how boring or average your life may seem at any given moment.

I love the thought of our lives being simply stories that we're living as we go along. It makes the basic things seem much more necessary, and perhaps more valuable.

Late Saturday evening, I decided to participate in Earth Hour. (I'm not sure why, but I hadn't even heard anything about it until that morning.) I was alone that evening, and suddenly the idea of candlelight and a nice, hot bath sounded better than anything else. Does running water mean that I cheated on the whole premise of Earth Hour? I remember thinking that, but then being all, "Hey! I haven't taken a bath in two years! Don't judge me, Earth! You don't know my life!"

Well, anyway.

It ended up being one of the most calm, enjoyable evenings I've had in a long time. I didn't worry about cleaning up the kitchen, I didn't bother to sit in front of the TV watching shows that I don't really care about, I didn't waste a bunch of time online, I didn't stress out about things that should be done. Instead, I came to the realization that everything is better by candlelight. My bathroom looks clean and delightful, my body looks glorious (I don't even care if that's an over share - I dare you not to feel like a goddess while illuminated by candlelight!), and even my thoughts felt much more organized.

As I was scrunched down in the bathwater, not caring how fuzzy my hair was at the moment (remember, everything looks better by candlelight, people) I thought about a lot of things. And, more importantly, I prayed. A lot. Which felt like catching up with an old friend, I guess.

I'm glad that I took the time to spend an evening like that. Perhaps I wasn't out to save the world by keeping the lights off and such, but it ended up being exactly the calm I needed. I love when things turn out like that.

26 comments :

  1. I really wish that I would've been able to do Earth Hour, but we were having people over for dinner, and I'm not sure candlelight would've worked out too well.

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  2. Been a long time since I had a bath that good, I'm envious. You are definitely right, everything looks fantastic in candlelight, I love it.

    You're beautiful, by the way. ;)

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  3. Ooo, sounds like a good book to read and I'll definitely have to add that on my reading list.

    and about your question - I agree. We still have a lot of things we want to accomplish in life with soo many directions all around us and that just choosing one direction at a time can completely change things and the future for better.

    I didn't even remember about Earth Hour until Saturday morning either. They probably should have promoted it ahead of time.

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  4. That sounds glorious. (And you aren't alone in just hearing about Earth Hour...oops) We don't really have the greatest size tub for doing a candlelit bath. I mean, I guess any tub will do, but compared to the tub in a house we lived in 2 years ago, no other tub has been able to compare. *sigh* I miss it.

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  5. It is always great when you read something and it just clicks and becomes so relevant to your life.

    And I'm glad you took some time out for yourself to reflect and pray. Praying is awesome!

    Oh and Earth hour actually started here in Aus, but I didn't get to participate this year as I was at a wedding. Though it would be very romantic if it was all candle light.

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  6. What a relaxing evening! You seemed to really take the time to do what YOU needed to do. We all should do that once in a while :)

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  7. It sounds relaxing! I wouldn't mind an evening like that.

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  8. What a great post. Everyone needs time to step away from the noisy world and listen to His still small voice. Glad you had a nice evening. :)

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  9. That sounds like a wonderful night!

    I've recently come to the realization that life is nothing more than a collection of experiences - both good and bad - that we grow and learn from. Its been a really comforting thought for me.

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  10. Sometimes you just need to take time out for yourself to regroup and center yourself.

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  11. What a wonderful post. You are such a great writer! I need to check that book out. I love it when you really connect with the words of an author.

    I didn't even know about Earth Hour until it had come and gone. Whoops - guess there's always next year!

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  12. Great quote. I think I need to read this book. I love books that speak to you like that.

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  13. I prayed. A lot. Which felt like catching up with an old friend, I guess.
    I love this.

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  14. I adore taking baths for this specific reason. Candlelight makes everything look more beautiful. & this is why I am taking baths more often. They rejuvenate me & make me feel relaxed. You should take baths more often, Love! :]

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  15. beautiful! I love this post. makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. and i wanna take a bath.

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  16. i love baths by candlelight. it is the number one most relaxing way to spend an evening.

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  17. I love that quote, or line, from the book.

    I celebrated Earth Hour by reading by candlelight. I should do that more often.

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  18. It always makes me happy when your blog shows up in my google reader.


    Hi - I'm Ashley. I've been lurking for a while, and I thought it would be polite to introduce myself.

    You have a beautiful outlook on life, and I feel honored to be privy to it.

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  19. sounds like you had a lovely evening. I love it when a great evening pops up unexpectedly.

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  20. don't you love it when God just kind of lets you be still... just to talk with him and spend time with Him, it's so great! :-) just having a night for yourself and relax. good for you! :-) and thank you for being so honest in your posts, I saw your twitter comment, don't worry about what other people say. You're an inspiration to me, and I don't even know if you really exist seeing as though all I know about you is what I read on your blog! HAHA! ;-) and I mean that... it's weird to say.. but I love reading your blog and being inspired to be more creative, and to love myself even if I'm not completely "tone"! hehe!!! Keep posting your honesty!

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  21. awww, a bubble bath sounds so good right about now :) life gets so crazy...thanks for the reminder to just relax in the tub & be still. i think i'll go catch up with my old friend right now ;) love that!

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  22. Thanks for the reminder to just SLOW DOWN. I need that today, as much as you needed those first words.

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  23. I was also very moved by the quote from the book that I picked it up today... I am seriously impressed already! p.s. I just love your blog.

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  24. I LOVE this post, it's amazing. I'm glad you had some time to yourself to reflect. We all need that.

    No bath in 2 years?! J and I are bath fanatics, they're awesome!

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  25. Love that quote and I didn'tneed to update,I already read your blog! cheers:)

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