October 10, 2008

on my response to your response...

Video blogging causes quite the stir, does it not?

I was happy to have such positive feedback as far as my shoddy little video is concerned. You are all entirely too sweet. Thank you so much for all the kind words! I'm beyond flattered. One thing that got me thinking, though, was how so many of you commented on my being "brave" to do it. Which led me to read into that phrase way too much be entirely too analytical and have visions of some scary guy peering into my window at night whispering, "I watched your video blog. I know who you are. I'm going to eat your family." So, thanks for that.

Juuuust kidding. Well, okay, not so much about the over analyzing, because we all know how much I love to over analyze. But, anyway.

I've never made my blog completely anonymous, although that is somewhat appealing in some respects. To me, it's always been about sharing me. And learning more about myself in the process. I've shared stories, photos, my insecurities and successes. Those of you who read my posts get a closer look into who I am than many people who see me from day-to-day. Mostly because the things you write about on a blog aren't exactly normal conversation. I can't walk up to one of my coworkers and say, "So, checked out my flickr lately?" They would probably give the stink eye, and walk away before I started talking. Or, "Want to hear my list of 101 things to do in 1001 days?" They would probably judge me, and walk away before I started talking. Or, "Lately, I really miss being a little kid. What are your favorite childhood memories?" They would probably give me a cookie, and walk away before I started talking.

I'm certainly not about to post my full name, home address, place of work or mother's maiden name - but I've never felt the need to keep myself completely hidden. (Having said that, this is definitely not a slam against anonymous bloggers. Sometimes, I want to be you. Such freedom you have. Believe me.) However, I guess that is why I didn't feel weird about posting the video. I know several lovely ladies who have posted video blogs, and I remember the first time I was able to see their mannerisms and hear their voice, I felt an even stronger kinship with them. (As cheesy as that sounds.)

Someone mentioned always being nervous when seeing a blogger posting a video for the first time; worrying that the bloggers actual voice and appearance wouldn't match what she'd always had in her head. It's kind of like when they make a movie out of one of your favorite books, and you get pissed off because the actor they choose for the role totally doesn't match the image in your head. (Twilight, anyone? Edward? No? Right. Moving on.) There is something about reading someone's writing that is so different than hearing them speak; getting to see them talk sort of breaks the spell, so to speak. I totally get that. However, I've realized that as far as I'm concerned, I've always been pleasantly surprised when I get to hear a blogger for the first time. It's always been a good thing.

As for the future of my video blogs, I've thought about it for a while, and have decided that this will only be a passing thing. (Have you entered Ashley's contest yet? Have you? Have you now? Now?) If I'm being completely honest with myself, the spoken word has never been my calling. I've aways been a writer as opposed to a talker. And if there's one thing four years of musical theatre prepares you for, it's certainly not being in front of the camera. (Be it for a blog or your husband's film projects. This is true.) I've always been able to express myself better through writing. And I don't want to force something just because I want to be like all the cool kids - because I do want to be like all the cool kids - or because it's something new. I'll leave that to the people who are better at it. And I will still read their blogs and watch their vlogs (that's a word, right?) and love them all the more.

But I will put together something slightly entertaining (don't quote me on that) for Ashley's contest. Why? Because I can.

And also because I still want to take over my husband's laptop. I will prevail.


  1. You're funny.

    I was thinking about video blogging on my walk this morning - and honestly, I think I'm scared that my real-life people (coworkers, friends, whomever) will find my blog and be like, "Wha-ha? Why the heck is Ashley talking to the whole world like this?" and the point fingers and laughing at me for thinking anyone cares.

    The real people in my life are actually much nicer than that, really. And I'm less insecure than that, really.

    So, I guess - I'd say you were brave in THAT sense. (Although I thought about doing a video-blog tour of our place, then had visions of a killer watching to video and plotting how to murder us in our sleep. I have an active imagination.)

  2. Uh, watching THE video, not watching TO video. Oops.

  3. Can't wait to see your next video! Yaya!!! I made another video last weekend, but I dunno if I'm going to put it up. It's maybe too dorky. haha. Hmmm.... maybe. Must think about my entry to the contest!

  4. I think most people were saying you were brave because it takes a really self confident person to open themselves up and take to the internet world like you did (and not be afraid of the reactions you will get from people). I'm so glad you did though. Your video really made me smile. I'm thinking about doing one of my own now. :)

  5. You are too cute. I must have been living under a rock because I totally missed this. I'm going to subscribe because I'm sick & tired of not being caught up on your little goodies.

    & you totally inspired me to do a video blog. :]


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