July 20, 2008

on my mania...

Yesterday I decided that I must be pregnant because I've gained two pounds in the last week-or-so. I told my husband, and he gave me one of those looks. Then he poured me another glass of wine.

At least I'll know who to blame when our child is born without a face. Or something.

Apparently, I need to get over this hey-maybe-I-could-get-accidentally-pregnant thing. I should probably think more about creating a child when we are ready, and not just because I want something tiny and adorable to cuddle. It's an issue, really.

Speaking of which, are you tired of hearing about it yet? Are you? Because this is most likely only the beginning, my friends. When I come home from Target next week with burp-rags and tiny pink baby socks (yes, I'm counting on my faceless child being a girl), then I will have reached the point of no return, and will definitely be seeking some sort of intervention.

We'll see what happens, anyway.

22 comments :

  1. i totally know, darling, and i'm not even married.

    i just finished a month-long nannying gig for the most adorable 18 month old ever, and now i want to find me a husband just so i can make one of those.

    not the right motivation for marriage? eh.

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  2. Hi my darling, of course I'm not tired of hearing it because been there done that and will probably relapse around Thanksgiving (Morgan's due date) and again in March (Talia's due date). have you and your husband set a game plan? Like what tangible goals you can set before you would feel comfortable having a baby? I've found that helps. Like when X happens, we can start trying. Because then you can work more towards getting to goal X instead of concentrating so much on getting to where you could have a baby. Does this make sense? Let me know if not.

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  3. dude I just read that I wrote darling after reading that courtney did. I was wondering where that darling came from. lol my subconscious was reading the comment above mine before my conscious did. haha. sorry to be a copycat, didn't mean to.

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  4. You guys should move up here. The air is better for babies.

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  5. I so get you, its truly the twentysomething married thing. At 30 it's expected, encouraged, yada yada, but in ones 20s its tougher.

    I also so agree with goals and a game plan. We're giving ourselves until December (January-ish) before I try again.

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  6. oooh - i already have a little guy but i have behbeh fever again! there isn't really a cure until you actually do get pregnant. :)

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  7. My internal breeding clock give me a swift kick every once in a while too, all it takes is the realization of how alone I am and a shot of tequila to get it to shut the hell up.

    I am so not ready to be a parent, but every so often I just want to have a family so bad it hurts my heart a little. Don't worry, your baby will be here sooner than later.

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  9. Maybe if you were surrounded by babies (like me), you wouldn't yearn so...? Because I can see how much it changes your life...and that makes it easier to wait. To be selfish and 23 and enjoy freedom. :)

    I would be delighted if I got preggers, but I know there's more we want to do first! Although, I admit that every time my period is a day later than usual, I get all excited and start thinking about having a child. :)

    (Psst, think I can blame my weight gain on a child instead of the massive amounts of peanut butter brownies I consumed?! Score.)

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  10. i'm so, so, with you on that. we have this shiny new house and i'm all... "WE HAVE A SPARE ROOM! WE NEED SOMETHING TO PUT IN IT! Ahem." and then i am reminded that we barely have the cash flow to keep OURSELVES clothed and fed, so another person in the mix? ohhh, i don't know about that.

    with that said, army wives last night? babies everywhere, and i about died. i just kept looking at steve like "please?" AND? two of my friends had babies.

    kill me now.

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  11. i completely know how you feel - i'm the only babyless person in my circle (everyone is due in the next week too) and i want one so bad i can't see straight but you need to sit down and get a game plan down with your hubby...that's what i did - its "the baby list"...so for now just breathe, take a test, and drink another bottle of wine...

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  12. so, yeah, i share your problem, as you know. freaking baby mania is making me (and by bf) nuts. even though i can't afford one, and the bf isnt ready and i'm not married and i take the pill religiously, every time i feel bloated i convince myself maybe i am preggers. then i get my period and secretly i am really really sad. today i realized every shirt i have bought recently from forever 21 could pass as a maternity shirt too... which maybe i am doing to myself subconciously... to conformt my non-preggers self? (or it could be freaking forever 21 who only has giant tent-like shirts and straples baby doll tube tops per the fashion these days.)
    recently bf told me in 3 years we can have a baby and i got suuuper excited. then i got sad because i realized i had to deal with baby mania for 3 MORE YEARS!?!
    i dont know what will help us, my friend, but if you figure it out let me know! xoxo

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  13. You are just way too cute right now! I read Stephanie's comment and had to laugh because I've been bugging her for, ohh... about 22 weeks now to get pregnant and join the club with me. She has a plan though, which is a good thing (and completely different from mine and Justin's experience, haha).

    I think all that you're feeling is completely natural, especially for a married woman because now we can actually have a baby and everyone in our families would be fine with it! So hey, pray about it, slip subtle (or not so subtle) hints to your hubby about having a little boy to follow in his footsteps (they can't resist the thought of a son, no matter WHAT they say), and it'll all be just fine. :)

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  14. I am so glad to hear that other young, married women feel the same way. I secretly hope every month that I am pregnant but then worry and wonder if we are ready and then when I am not I am sad and get a little depressed. It is such a sick cycle. I wonder if there really is a cure, if so..I would love to hear what it is.

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  15. Sweet little wishcake-- reading this post of yours only made the comment that you left for me on my announcement mean that much more. Because I know your happiness for me is totally hearfelt, even though you are wanting your OWN baby so badly right now. I hope you know that the day when you get to tell us your own good news (whenever that may be) will make me so happy that there will definitely be squealing and jumping up and down!! :)
    In the meanwhile, I am definitely praying for you-- that you would be able to have patience and peace, and that the day will come sooner than you think. I couldn't agree more with Morgan and Steph-- those are such wonderful suggestions, and hopefully it will help you to have something tangible to work for and look forward to.
    Also, and I know that this isn't going to magically make your baby fever disappear or anything like that-- take it from a woman who had a child nine months and three days after getting married: while I would never ever change a thing and am more grateful for my children than I can say, and if I could I probably would make every woman a mom, it's just that amazing-- there is nothing like the time of your life before kids come along. Once you have them, they are ALWAYS there, you will ALWAYS be a mom. And it's wonderful, truly wonderful. But I hope that you can simply enjoy this time now of just you and your hubby being able to live for the two of you-- it will be long gone before you know it.
    Ooh, long (and sort of advice-y, even though I don't really mean it that way) comment. Sorry! :)

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  16. I long for a baby too.. I know it's not the time, but i still can't wait.

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  17. While I don't share your desire for wanting a baby, I feel for you.

    Is there anything stopping you from having a little bundle? If not, I think you both should consider making one. ;]

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  18. OH man, I always think I'm preggers - haha, and I don't even want a baby right now. But then when I think I could be preggers and I'm not, then I get a little sad. Life is so strange! One day I hope to experience your level of baby mania! Then I think (actually) getting preggers will be that much more meaningful.

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  19. I feel so unmotherly. I truly love kids, but I think I'm too selfish. Maybe I'm enjoying my freedom too much to want any of my own. At least right this second.

    Plus, I'm so neurotic. I could screw a feceless kid up in like five years. Then what would I do for the other thirteen to sixteen?!

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  20. hahaha, oooohhh babies. i get what you mean, they are way too adorable.
    but like heather rose, i'm currently waayyy too selfish to actually have to take care of anything more than my own hangover.

    ps. the picture you posted on picture? (of you as triplets) - you look stunning! congrats!

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  21. i just keep borrowing other people's babies to satisfy the need, haha. at least you've already got the married thing under your belt. i'm not even there yet, and i definitely want to do that one first, haha.

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  22. Oh my lands. I just found your blog and I swear you are the most adorable thing ever! I am totally feeling the exact same baby itch right now and obsessing about it non frggin STOP. Only, I am approaching...quickly I might add, 29. So it's a little more pressing. Anyhow, I actually DID by an adorable little dress for my imaginary daughter, at T.J Maxx the other day. I only see it getting worse from here on out until conception! You have tons of time.
    Great blog!

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