June 29, 2008

on myself, five years ago

"I wonder if my love story is going to be full of romance and fate. I really hope so. Isn't that awful or irrational of me? To hope that it's not just some casual, convenient thing that falls into my lap? To wish for something that's exciting and that you have to chase after? It's the hopeless romantic in me. And it never dies, no matter what. I will never cease to adore the thought of having a soul-mate. I guess that's one thing I have going for me, right? The fact that I can't stop dreaming and hoping. Foolish fantasies or not, at least I have something that I'm holding onto."

- written by myself, at 18

10 comments :

  1. I LOVE old diary entries like this; mine are filled with them & they sound exactly like yours. It's such a treat to look past & see that all of your inner wishes have come true, without you even knowing it. I love it. :]

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  2. That's so sweet. & it must be so nice to be able to look back on old diary entries like this one and see what has been accomplished.

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  3. Sometimes I wish I could scour through my blog entries from 7 years and find little tidbits that are wise or ironic or clairvoyant. But I have little patience for 18-year-old me. :(

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  4. Wow. It must be weird to go back and read journal entries from 5 years ago. I have so many friends that kept journals/diaries (and that still do) and they occasionally go back to see what they were like 5+ years ago. If only I had the ability to write my thoughts down like that, I would keep one too. But I think I'm too afraid of my journal being found, so I tend to edit it for people who might read it some day. Weird, I know.

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  5. aw so sweet. i love reading back on things i wrote way back when and seeing where i am now in comparison.

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  6. I want to chime in and say, "Yeah, me too!" Reading old entries is sooo fun.

    Do you feel like your dreams were realized? :)

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  7. This is so wonderful! I bet you're so glad that you wrote this journal entry at 18 and still have it now. Now I wish I wrote more journal entries! And I love that you believed in a soul-mate and love and excitement -- isn't it so neat that your wish came true?!

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  8. You sound so wise! And you write SO well, that is why I love to read your blog, though half the time I am too busy to comment, I always love your look on life. Even when you are "down" you are so upbeat and sweet! I hope your love story is full of romance!

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  9. I wish I was that insightful when I was 18. Instead of wishing for love and romance, I was wishing for a lust episode with the captain of the football team. Obviously, I do not set high goals.

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