May 18, 2008

on my current state of health...

So, yesterday was basically a nightmare. A nightmare, people.

First of all, the whole Kidney Stone Shenanigans had taken a good two days off, which was certainly enjoyed by me. And although I'm certainly thankful that my pain hasn't been up to par with the horror stories I've heard, I still wasn't appreciative of the pain I was experiencing. So, anyway. Two days off. It was enjoyed. I almost thought that I may have passed them without knowing it.

Of course, Friday evening it was acting up a bit, and I took medicine to help me sleep (I swear I'm not an addict) considering I had to be up at 4AM for my morning shift. Welp, 3AM rolls around and I'm wide awake and hurting. Well, I thought to myself, this just great. Shall we pop another pill and enjoy a banana? Okay. Why not. So, I try that, and although I feel a bit queasy, I jump in the shower and put myself together as best a person can in the pre-dawn hours of the morning.

Once I was at work, I just didn't feel right. Now, normally, it wouldn't have been that big of an issue, as there are usually two people working the morning shift. But I was alone. M had some testing for her teaching credentials or something all day. So, it wasn't like I could just scoot along home and take a little nappy-pooh. About an hour into my shift, I was positive that my pitiful excuse for a breakfast certainly wasn't going to stay in it's current position, so I had to quickly screech, "Cansomeonepleasecometocustomerservice!" into the radio, and scurry past a lobby full of customers into the bathroom.

I look at my reflection afterwards, and you know how after you get sick your face is basically drained of all color whatsoever? Yeah. Sexy. So, I'm standing there, trying to look human again, but it's not working. I try to jump around, but that doesn't work because I'm still nauseous. I try to pinch my cheeks, but then I have these two bright red spots on my face. I think of splashing my face with cold water, but then I figure if I have mascara running down my cheeks, I may officially cross the line into vampire territory.

I go back to the desk, and all the guys are very sympathetic, but obviously out of their element when it comes to calming a sick female. They wished me well, offered help if I needed anything and went back outside. I think it just made them nervous. Ah, men.

I ended up calling in the next shift early, so I could get home. She was a sweetheart and made it in by 8:30 with a hug, a "You should've called earlier!" and well wishes for me as I scurried out to my car.

I napped on and off the rest of the day, but I was sick the whole time. I knew I wasn't going to make it in to work this morning, so I even had to make a tear-filled, choked-up call to one of the managers (because that's not embarrassing at all) to let him know I wouldn't be in. I'm glad I did, though, because by the end of the night, I couldn't even keep water down. I'm amazed that I finally got to sleep.

I'm feeling better again today. I went back to urgent care this morning (Jay was sweet enough to call out of work and go with me), but the fact that not one of the four doctors I've seen about this in the last ten days seems worried about it, makes me think that maybe I should calm down a bit? "You're going to pass it. You will." "It's definitely small enough to where you won't have trouble passing it." "Ooooh, lets get you some other pain meds because I hear it hurts SO BAD when you pass it!" It just doesn't seem okay to have to deal with something like this for ten days and not be given a time limit as to when it will be gone. I mean, can't a girl get on with her life at some point? Seriously. I'm so thankful that I have a ridiculous amount of sick time saved up. Like, 80 hours before last week. And I'm also thankful that the people I work with have been incredibly empathetic thus far - even management. Considering I already feel so guilty about all the time I've taken off, even if there's no way I could have worked, it feels good to know that I don't have that extra pressure on me right now.

So, there you go. Drink alot of water, folks. Avoid kidney stones. And that's my story.


  1. I hope you start to feel better soon and pass that baby! I'm glad your work is understanding! Sometimes that can be even worse than the being sick part.

  2. Oh no! At the very least a silver lining is that you have supportive people at work! It would suck even worse if they weren't letting you off without a fight! Take care and get better :)

  3. oh my dear...i don't want to alarm you but i think you should ask one of your doctor's about crohn's disease. your exact situation happened to my co-worker and she found out she has crohn's disease because her kidney stones got to the point that she could barely move herself out of bed. (although i'm not saying you definetly have the disease, it just sounds similar.)

    i'm really glad you're feeling better but just keep pestering those doctors to make sure they get down to the bottom of whatever is causing the issue.

  4. Oh, honey... I am so sorry you've been dealing through this. Ugh; while reading, I was cringing just thinking about the mortification & embarrassment. I loathe puking (did your mom ever call it "up-chuck?" I'm trying to find someone who knows what I'm talking about!); when I do, I am a mess... I am no longer a brave, married woman. I am a 5 year old child, crying, gagging & asking God to make it go away. Yikes.

  5. oooh! that stinks you are so sick!

    i've had kidney stones and althought i went through hell before passing them, at one point, they were finally gone - and i didn't even know i had passed them.

    i hope you get better soon!

  6. I'm so, so sorry you're still in pain and going through this-- it sounds SO freaking horrible-- I can't even imagine. I'm glad your hubby took the day off to go with you to urgent care. I'm sorry the docs haven't given you a straight answer. Hope you feel much, much better ASAP!!!

  7. Owowowowow!

    Truly sucks, I hope it gets better soon!

  8. As soon as I read this last night, I downed water. Lots of it.

    Maybe you could be the poster girl for the Kidney Stone Society? People would hear your stories and see your cute face and be like, "Water! Give me water!"

    God, I'm a dork.

  9. Oh you poor girl. Yeah, at least your work is supportive and understanding... it's the worst when they're all, 'suck it up.'

    I hope you feel better soon... it's almost over!

  10. so sorry that it's so miserable for you right now. I hope it's all done and over with soon!

  11. oh man that is awful. i hope you start to feel a whole lot better soon.

  12. ugh. i sooo feel your pain. water. lots o water


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