September 30, 2007

on random musings of the AM...

I'm rocking the messy bun this morning. Which I don't usually do under normal circumstances. Although, I do have to say that it's more of a necessity than I preference this morning, as I did wake up at 4:35AM. These morning shifts aren't kicking my butt as much as I figured they would, which is quite nice, actually. (But that doesn't mean I'm willing to get up 25 minutes earlier to take a shower. Hell to the no.) I've enjoyed having the mornings, to be honest. Especially this time of the year, when the air is all crisp and chilled. We don't get much crisp air out here in the ol' So Cal.

So, random goodness yesterday: I received a random gift from a random person. A lady who has been taking flying lessons in the area, and who is always a complete gem when she comes in, gave us all little boxes with MAC lipgloss and nailpolish inside, as a gift, since she's nearly done with training and is going home to Greece (or somewhere around there - um, can I go?) soon. It was so out of the blue and so generous. Heck, I rarely buy MAC makeup for myself, seeing that it is completely overpriced. How generous was that, to buy a bunch of gifts for girls that you see for only momens out of the day?

I want to be like that. Generosity, with a wardrobe to die for. (She has both.)

Today, I feel joyful.

I'm not sure what it is, but I feel a genuine shift in my attitude. I think I'm just now realizing (or, choosing to acknowledge, more likely) that life is what you make of it. Sure, I can say that certain people or certain circumstances make me angry or bitter or frustrated. But, really? It all comes down to my reaction. I want to be the person I was a couple years ago. The person with the cheerful disposition, who always tried to bring some sort of positive vibe to the day. Somewhere along the line, I lost alot of that...not sure how, or why, but I did. I hate feeling like I need someone to pat me on the back and say, "Aw, dear. What a tough thing. You sure have a right to be pissed off!" I crave empathy and thrive on that whole damsel in distress thing. It's part of who I am, but I don't want it to be as constant as it has been as of late.

So, it's a good day.


  1. Yay for good days my dear! I miss you, and guess what? I might be in So Cal for Christmas! Woo woo! That totally rocks my socks.

    BTW, you must change my linky link on your page... that way my new blog is just a click a way! (I sound like an add... interesting)

    Love you! I will be sending snail mail soon!

  2. Came to visit via Janet's blog, and wanted to say helloooooo from one microwave popcorn addicted twenty three year old to another.

    Happy delurking day!


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